Picturing my life without you is scary. Seeing it like a movie is terrifying. :|
I had a weird dream last night. It was plain and simple, really. It showed my "future" I saw myself old, happy and married...to another man. When I woke up, I was really scared. I was unsure of how I felt. Imagine having your future ahead of you shown to you like some boring movie. It sucks. Maybe that's why God made the future unknown because it sucks to know what tomorrow brings. It's like being helpless, like surrendering to what is bound to happen. It's like playing a role in a drama. You only get to do what's written in the script. :( I hate how it feels. :( I wanted a life with you and only with you. :(
