My beloved babies,
Hi babies! I want both of you to know that I, mommy, loves you so much. I know that mommy wasn't exactly "ready" when you arrived. I thought I'll be ready the next time around but no, I still wasn't. I know that Mommy isn't and is never going to be the perfect parent to both of you but I promise to try my best to take care of you and give you the love you both deserve.
Kuya baby, I know that mommy owe you much more because I never get to really take care of you and be hands on. I know that you were confused and lonely but I want you to know that mommy did her best to make you feel loved and I am doing everything I need to do just so I can provide a better life and environment for you. Mommy is so proud of what you are becoming. I know you'll grow to be a good brave man. You always give mommy the strength to move on and the comfort of knowing that I would have one man that would love me no matter what.
Bebe bad girl, mommy owes you a lot as well. For one, you had to endure stress and all that because mommy cannot stop school even if you're already here. I commend you for being strong. I know that mommy cannot provide much right now for you and your future is still very much uncertain but I assure you that I would do all that I can to make sure that you would have everything you need. I know that you are just like me - strong and brave. I promise you that Kuya baby will be there to protect you and you will always be our bebe princess. :* We are waiting for you and we are so excited!
My babies, mommy loves you so much. Mommy will make it up to both of you. :*
As what Cardinal Rosales has said in his homily during the feast day of the Immaculate Conception in Manila Cathedral, God has chosen mothers. Not all is chosen to be a mother. Therefore, I can say that I am indeed blessed because God has entrusted me, not with one but two little babies to take care of. Knowing that God has chosen me to do his work is enough to keep me going.
with all my love,
Mommy. ♥
