Day 14 | Bad habits and burdens

Bad habits are like a comfortable bed, easy to get into but hard to get out of.

-Proverbs

I guess this one is hard. We are usually unaware of our habits especially the bad ones. But in this case, I'll try really really hard to think of those. Hmm.


So, the first one that got into my head is that I tend to correct people's grammar. I'm not that intelligent or something but I study English and Linguistics so I may have a little knowledge about that especially the basics. I know that this is not bad but it could be when the person I'm correcting would take it as a destructive criticism.


Another bad habit is cramming. Oh God! I love cramming. Even if I have the time to make the papers, requirements and stuffs ahead of time, still, I cannot come up with anything. It had to be the night before or few days before (if the requirement is longer and more tedious). I tried writing papers the night it was given but I just stare blankly in the blinking cursor. In those times, I get tired of straining myself and almost always ends up in social networking sites. lol.


Bad habits. Bad habits.


I have a habit of leaving the stuffs I used behind. If I change clothes, I would leave the clothes behind. It's not being mean, I don't know. It's like automatic or something. Totally unintentional. I have a messy room but once in a while, I get the feeling of wanting to clean up and so I do and halfway through it, I get tired and become lazy to finish it all. The good thing is that I can command myself to finish it but in a hasty manner so the end product isn't much appealing. haha.


Ooh! and I also love planning! I have great plans!! Really brilliant ones. The problem is implementation. I just don't know why I can't seem to implement my life-changing plans. lol.


Burdens. Okay. So, I'm quite confused. What exactly is meant by "burden" in this context? For this blog, I would assume that this "burden" meant the things that are currently bothering me. So here it goes. I'm worrying about my performance as a parent to my kid. He could be a pain in the ass sometimes and I wonder if I can make him the man he's supposed to be. Oh God help me. It's really hard to be a parent. All the emotional circus can make someone doubt themselves. I always ask myself if what I'm doing is right or am I good enough?.. Things like that. It's hard knowing that you are responsible for someone else's life.. It's scary. I just hope and pray that I would have the strength and wisdom to guide not only my son, but also myself in this life's journey. Happy Birthday, Jieshua. :) Mommy loves you to pieces! ♥ I will blog about his birthday blahs tomorrow evening or the following day 'cause we still have some celebrating to do. :) Good night!