year end post.. bow!

I was thinking of blogging last night but I felt sleepy and so I dozed off. =)

The year 2011 was eventful, memorable and heartbreaking at some points.

Last NYE, Jieshua got into an accident that left his chin scarred up until now. (and forever, I think.)

I got pregnant this year although I'm not quite sure if it's May or June.
Rob and I were shaken by the unexpected pregnancy. Of course! Who wouldn't be?
But we're now very happy about it. Yay! :) *squeal!*

We lost our paternal grandmother last June. It was so sad and our family mourns for the loss until now. :(

Jieshua also first set his foot in school this year. The kid is so hyper his teacher complains! HAHA. :)) Here's how his first day went.

Academics were manageable for me, Thank GOD! :)

Finished my practicum!! Thank GOD, again!! and also thank you to my Practicum supervisor, cooperating teacher, friends and my thesis partner, Kristine!! :)

This year, I actually started actively blogging again! Yey!

Aaaand... Rob and I had a really rollercoaster year of ups and downs.

As the new year approach, people make fuss about kicking old bad habits and getting good new ones.

Come on! I've been there. It's easier said than done!! The most common new year's resolution is maybe lose weight. FUCK THAT! With food that entice you to eat like a dinosaur, how could you lose weight, right?

I plan on not having a new year's resolution cause I cannat keep up with it and I end up disappointed and thinks of myself as a failure for not religiously doing the NYR.

Enough of that.

Last night, aunt and cousin, Kuya Larky visited and invited us to spend NYE at their house. I really wanted to come but my mama and papa wanted to stay so I stayed.

Anyway, after all the chit chat and catching up, I realized that family will always love you and will always be there for you.

They could have strangled me to death by being pregnant again. And in the most unlikely time - just before my graduation. But they did not. Whew! What they did is show their concern and support for me.

How I love my family! I miss the old times when we used to go to our grandparents' house and spend Christmas Day and New Year's Day with each other. All of us. :|


Last night was also a good time to be emo. No, I did not slash my wrist whatsoever. Veins are still intact.

Don't you just fear the future?

That's how I felt last night. The future is so uncertain and that uncertainty brings fear that you can never suffice. or ... or.. that you can never live up to the expectation.. Worst of all, I have two babies relying unto me., totally my responsibility and what they become is because that's what I made them.

And if you have that kind of power, wouldn't you be fearful that you might just be not doing the right thing?


I don't want to dwell on those kinds of feelings. It was good that I felt that just before 2012 started.

I felt it, acknowledged it, then moved on. 

EYES ON THE GOAL!!!!


We should learn to keep going for the gold..

The future is uncertain. But maybe, that's the beauty of it. Not knowing where you'll end up means chances for you to change it and make things happen.

This 2012, let's all be happy and set our eyes on the goal. Do not be distracted. Have faith! :)

1 Corinthians 13:13

Three things will last forever -- faith, hope and love. And the greatest of these is LOVE. ♡

Happy New Year, everyone! ☺

Get well soon baby.

Last night, Jieshua vomited after dinner. We were thinking that he just ate too much and that the orange juice and chocolate drink didn't mix well in his tummy. 

At around 4:30am, when I was about to sleep, I embraced him and noticed that he was feverish. I called my mom and affirmative! He indeed have fever.

So, we woke him up so he could take medicine.

After that, he couldn't sleep and complains about feeling nauseous.

And he did THROW UP!!! A COUPLE OF TIMES ACTUALLY!

POOR BABY. :(( 

After that, he played with his remote control car while mom and I rest sleep in bed.

When I glanced at Jieshua, he was sleeping on the floor. :(( Aww. my poor baby. 

They went to the doctor early morning and I cannot go along because I am still advised to be confined to the glorious bed. 

Anyway, the doctor said he had a hard time digesting the food he ate and that his phlegm didn't help. So, he would take antibiotics for that.

We slept all afternoon. Ahhhh. So great!

This is his "I'm not feeling well face".. LOL

Thank you Mc Donald's for such nomnom fries.

Le me wake up face. noooooo!!!

Calling daddy!! :)

WARFACE!!!!

He opted to play laptop cause he cannot go out. 

And we found our walkie talkiessss!! Yay!!

goodbye clothes

Rob came today with breakfast for me. *yehey*
Liemsilog, Orange Juice and a few sweet Kropeck. My favorite!! :) I wasn;t able to take pictures of it because I was too caught up in the moment and immediately and selfishly consumed them.

Rob acted fast too!

While I was busy eating my breakfast in bed, he was unearthing all my clothes from my closet into my bed.

He was telling ordering me to get rid of the clothes I do not wear anymore cause 1. my closet is throwing up and once you open it, effort is needed to close it again and 2. so that I can "feel" the need to replenish my clothes with new and more of-age clothes. (meaning: get rid of your shirts and start wearing nicer clothes.)

I let him do his thing by picking my clothes one by one and asking me whether we should put it in the plastic (donation bag) or back in my closet. He wins anyway. *argh*

We got into a fight pa because of some clothes I didn't wanna give up. huhu.

Eventually, we finished clearing up my stuffs

and.....


taddaah! :)

Here's what's supposed to be given out.

If you'd ask me, the picture doesn't do much justice on how much it really is!!! 

MY closet is suddenly empty. *gasp*

For reference of how tall the pile of clothes are left, see the bottle of perfume! 

You must be thinking, "This must be heartbreaking for her.."

YES!! It actually is.

But as the new year approaches, I have to have new habits to break and things to let go. :)

I was lucky he let me keep some of the shirts. THE ONES FROM LASALLE, ATENEO and the ones I swore I'd cut and give a new look! 

The lucky ones left of the shorts and skirts (and jumpers too!!).

Oh well. I'm sure that the clothes I gave out will go to those who need them. 

Christmas 2011

Our Christmas was simple. I was bored cause I was confined to the sofa sitting down or lying down. I just waited for the food from the party the neighbors and my mother are having. We don't usually cook a lot during Christmas cause of the party.

I'm really happy this Christmas! Thank you Jesus! :)

our christmas tree!

Jieshua and me

my shoti and mom

papa, mama and jieshua

papa and jieshua

mama, papa and jieshua

Me and Rob

I so love this!

suman and cocoa!! ♥ HEAVEN!

buko pandan
 Joyce: Ano yung buko pandan? Dahon?
Rob: Oo, dahon na may sabaw.
Joyce: Iniinom?
Rob: Oo.
Joyce: Potek. Google ko na nga lang.
HAHAAHAHA

present!!

cannot wait for baby sister!!

Thank you for giving us gifts when it is in fact your birthday! :) I love you!

merry christmas!!

It's true that Christmas is a time for giving and receiving but we should be mindful of the true meaning of it. On this day, we remember the birth of our savior, Jesus Christ. 

Today, I want to recount the things that I am thankful for. 

Thank you because I am loved.
I know that my immediate and extended family loves me so much despite all my shortcomings and mistakes.  I'm thankful for their support and patience. They were there for me -never failing to call me, check on me, remind me that they are there, send something when I need it even without me asking from them. I just feel blessed to have them all.

Thank you to Robinson, who has immeasurable love for me. He has proven so much and yet he continuously proves he loves me especially during these trying times. He's there to take care of me, to be my source of strength and love, to clean me up cause I'm bed-ridden (haha), to surprise me, to attend to my needs, to make sure I feel comfortable. Thank you. I will never know what I did to ever deserve your love.

Thank you to my Kuya baby, Jieshua for being my sunshine. He's always there to remind me that I am strong and that I am loved no matter what. He's the sweetest baby a mom could ever have. I called him when I was in the hospital and told him that baby Jielaena might be coming out of my tummy, he got so excited and he wanted me to come home that instance! He then wanted to setup the crib cause his baby is coming home already! haha.

I would also like to acknowledge the love of my friends who are always there. I know they are all busy but they never fail to check how I'm doing - call, text or visit. They never forgot to make me feel loved. Thank you. I appreciate the small things. Ü

To the true celebrant of Christmas :

Thank you, Jesus for saving me once again. I know that I have never been the perfect follower. I was always in the line between being good and bad and Santa's always tempted to put me in the "naughty" list haha. But you never did let me down. There were times when I thought that you forsake me and let me suffer but it was all for me. It was all a test. I'm sorry if I doubted your wisdom. You know best and Your plans are always greater than mine. Thank you so much for all the blessings and the love. Happy Birthday! ♥ I love you. 

I may not have much of worldly possessions. In fact, the few things that I could brag about, I already lost, broke or forgot about. All I wanna have for this Christmas is good health for me, my family and loved ones and also for those who are needing it, happiness and contentment of the heart, forgiveness, hope and love for those who've lost it. I want to believe that I stopped wanting and obsessing about stuffs that don't really matter, stuffs that would fade out of style in a year or so.

I genuinely feel contented that I have all the things I need right here in my heart. 

I hope you find the meaning of your Christmas! 

Have a merry one! ♥