Thursday, March 24, 2016

Maundy Thursday | Humility


This was my laptop wallpaper for almost a month. I don't know about you but I want to be constantly reminded that "I can". So when I found this on Pinterest, I didn't have second thoughts and changed the laptop wallpaper I had for more than a year to this one. 

I seriously have very high self esteem. I've always thought that since I managed to be a scholar in college and to be a manager as soon as I graduated, I have something in me that beats something out there.

But this arrogance has brought me heartache recently. 

I was put into a particular situation before and I thought during that time that I was not ready yet and expectedly, I did not bag the part. Thinking that this time, I was up for it and I was really ready, I kinda made myself believe that this was a no-brainer. I'd DEFINITELY get it. 

But life has a way of humbling you to the point of heartbreak. Long story short, I did not get the promotion. What a heartbreak! Thinking that you got it, when you really don't. 

After grieving for a weekend, I thought of all the times I felt that I "failed" but these "failures" ultimately brought me to the best successes of my life. I thought of all the times Jesus has saved me by means of breaking my heart. Jesus is the ultimate perfecter. I know that this heartache is just a detour to redirect me to another great success. 

In light of Maundy Thursday, I write this to remind my future self that humility is always the best option and that all things - good or bad - are part of God's plan. 


Have a holy week, everyone! 




P.S. New wallpaper is this.




Monday, July 6, 2015

Just Keep Swimming


Whether you believe you can do a thing or not, you are right.

— Henry Ford

The hardest battle a person has to make is to battle against himself. No other entity is more powerful than yourself. Quarter life crisis is really, reaaally a pain. I have been struggling with myself for so long. Thinking and analyzing things through. I have to say that it has been a really difficult time for me. But my faith has been pulling me through. I am still struggling with my life direction but it gets better everyday. I do get to notice the small miracles God is giving me. But while I'm still waiting for the BIG Breakthrough, I will just keep swimming. 



Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Aren't We All?

I don't know what is it with me that some people tend to pass judgement without really getting to know me. Is it because of the way I talk? Is it the way I deliver what I say? My choice of words? Is it the way I walk? My resting bitch face? I know that we really can't please everybody, but am I just too awful to be around? I really, really try to be as thoughtful, careful and reserved as I can be, but I am just naturally loud, carefree and I guess, a little obnoxious.


Monday, March 16, 2015

Old Home. New Home.

We have finally moved to our new home. We have been planning to do it since last year but only got to execute it this year. And I'm really having mixed emotions about it.

Let me first tell you about our old home.

April 2013, we decided that it is time to have our own little home. We found a place which really fits our taste for raising our kids. It's tucked in Mandaluyong, just very near Makati. Easily accessible to transportation and Mandaluyong is basically at the middle of the Metro. The house is at the second floor of a five-storey building. We were the first one to move there since the building is new. The unit is a one-bedroom, with miniature kitchen, living and bathroom. Jielaena was still a wee little baby back then and Jieshua was just around five when we moved there. It's wasn't much, but it was home.

Fast forward to almost two years after, we have to leave the house because we got ourselves a little home of our home. The kids are growing up and the monthly rent just doesn't fit the budget anymore. As we left our old home, it's hard not to be emotional. Our kids basically grew up there. We built our dreams and achieved some of them. We had our kids running around our little house, tickling session, birthday house parties and all that. I would definitely miss living in our first home but when one door closes, another one opens.

This year, 2015, we moved to our new house in Mandaluyong also. Just a five minute walk from our old home. Here, we will build new dreams, achieve greater things, create great memories and raise happy kids.